It's been a strange 6 weeks or so... actually HOLY FUCKBUS, it's been a strange year so far. Everything has changed for various reasons and it has all been a lot to take in, but at the end of the day, it has all been good for myself and the poor, chain-smoking performing Otter that's called my mind. It hasn't worked out at all how I hoped it would, but being down in London has given me a lot of time to think.
To cut a long story short, I'm leaving the capital in 2 weeks. I have had a lot of fun and I don't regret a single moment, but I have to be realistic, as I can't afford to keep on living down here right now. In some ways, I'm pissed off with that fact, but in other ways, I'm fine with it. These things happen and it's better to get out while you still can, rather than waiting until Lady Luck has well and truly fucked you out of your skull-bones
I'm not seeing this as a failure, but as a chance I can't waste, just like when I decided to come down here. I took a chance and went for it. I have been given a lot to think about and a lot of time to think about... well pretty much everything, really. As a result, I know what I want and need to do now.
Thanks to some very lovely people I'm lucky to call friends, I have taken a step back and thought about what I need and want to do. I have actually written a shitting to-do list and I've already ticked something off it. I apologise if this isn't making much sense, as I'm using safe mode on my laptop, as it has totally fucked up and not even safe mode is actually "safe" anymore and add to the fact, I'm in a flat looking after a cat and some fish that keep stinking the place out to the point it makes me want to vomit, which I admit might all be good material for a book one day, but right now just makes me want to go "AAAAAAARRRRRGHYOUFUCKINGTWATTYBOLLOCKINGFUCKTURKEYS", but right now, this is how it is.
Once again, thank you all for your support, as always. So many people I want to thank for so many reasons. You're all wonderful and very patient.
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